I'm gonna start bitching, just to warn u ...

First, my mom has a death wish cuz all of a sudden she decides she wants to care about me ... Where was her caring when i was 14 years old and dating a 19 year old guy?? Wow ... shocking. See, me and her have 3 hour long "discussions" that mainly consist of her telling me how she and dad are (and i quote) "obligated to love [me] but quite frankly [they] don't have to like [me] ... at all" ... My response you ask? Well it went something like this .. "THEN LEAVE ME ALONE!!" She is always on my ass about how i should be more like my perfect brother and my flawless cousins cuz obviously i'm not good enuff for her or for that matter any one else ... imagine that.Then she wants me to spend more time with a family that doesn't like me than a boyfriend who loves me ... THAT makes sense, don't you think??

Then we have my boyfriend. I love him, i just can't take his clinginess sometimes. Quite frankly, it scares the hell outa me! AHHH! We got in a fight becuz i didn't wanna hang out cuz i wuz tired from a 12 1/2 hour day at work ... I keep forgetting that i'm only here to serve those around me .... Sry, i must be a fuckin tard or something ... What's wrong with just chilin out and not being so high strung?? I like the fun stuff, not the freaking out that comes with people! LOL!